you were in my dreams last night
you were in my dreams last night i dreamt of you last night. i dreamt that i hugged you. that i held you in my arms and smelled your shampoo. that i felt the softness of your shirt and the warmth of your skin. & then you disappeared. & i woke up that night with this immense pain in my chest like i couldn't breathe. i've concluded that i won't go back to you again. but you still find a way to creep into the deep crevices of my mind. it's like you live there. your smile ingrained in my head. i've reread our messages hundreds of times. thought of you for so many hours. i wonder if i've visited yours. at least once. maybe that's why you appear in my dreams. i wish you'd leave me alone. im so tired of feeling anything for you. i wish you would have glued my heart back together before you left. i contemplated unblocking you for a moment. i've contemplated telling her what you told me. but who am i to ruin you? who am i to keep being curio